Can I Do Something What I Want To???

Can I do something what I want to do???
Well that’s the question I ask myself at least 10 times a day……can I do something what I want to??....and every time the answer is a big NO…..not only me many of you as well must have got into a situation in which you are not yourself….you try to be someone else…..for instance…we go to a shop to buy a dress……there this sales person says that this so and so dress is worn by so and so hero/heroin in so and so movie…..that’s it …we all are impressed…..we shed hundreds of thousands to buy that dress……why are we doing that???its just that we want to be like someone else…..i don’t deny that I am not like that and that I do whatever I want and all……but the fact is…. in this present day world we all have lost our individuality….
At times we are bound to do something for others….i mean….you wear a dress not because…..you like it or you are comfortable with it but because someone would be impressed by you if you wear that dress……i have a dress which I like a lot….given a chance I would love wearing it daily….but my friends…….they don’t like it…….every time I wear that dress they make fun of it….so eventually I stopped wearing it…..why have I done that????It is just to impress them………
Another friend of mine comes to me in a pink pant and a green shirt and asks me if his dress is good!!!!i say its just awesome, amazing, mind blowing and all other adjectives…….and add that he is very much on par with latest trends and fashion……listening all this he is happy infact extremely happy…….he goes away with a huge smile and promises a treat that weekend………good……but basically I never liked it……I mean I just didn’t like the combination or what ever……the point is I did not like it…but why have I said all those things to him????it is just that I don’t want to hurt him or may be I knew that he would give me treat if I tell him all that:P so here I go….am not myself again………I go to a music concert and clap for a song which I did not like at all….i do that because others are clapping for it….( I wonder how many must have really enjoyed it….)but anyway I clap……
When I was in school I often wondered why am I learning something which doesn’t interest me……example….physics/chemistry….it never made any sense to me why am I learning how to prepare oxygen when it is plenty in the atmosphere……why am I doing that???am I going to prepare oxygen for my survival???i mean is it going to give me my daily bread and butter? They taught me how to construct an electric motor…..now I am pretty well sure that when I grow up I am not going to make my living by constructing electric motors!!!!Okey fine they teach me how to construct an electric motor (only on paper!!) but then they should also teach me how to repair it…because that is more practical and that is more useful to me!!!!!!
Not only these few instances….but there are many in which we tend to do what we do not want to……..so what I feel is hypocrisy has become the way of life for many of us….we got to come out of all these taboos and give importance to our individuality……..