Its not the same now.....

Its not the same now...everything around is changing and that change is slow,yet fast..everything is changing slowly..but then after sometime when you look back you would say...'i don't believe this..it all seems like yesterday'..well yeah..it all seems like yesterday...

Its strange how quick the time drifted away from us...On my 18Th birthday when i told my dad how excited am about the whole 'am-a-major-now' thing..he looked at me for a while without saying a word and then finally said.."you are already 18??..its been 18 years since i took you into my hands for the first time ??.time's a thief"..Actually true..time's a thief..you never know how things have happened and they just happen..

In the whole excitement about being a major,a little thought that stuck my grey cells was..what am i celebrating for??Life's not been the same from past year to this year..yet am celebrating life..It was lot simpler as a kid..no complexities,no politics...if i did not like someones company i would just say 'katif' and move away and join some other group..but its not the same now..even if i don't like someone..i cant openly say it..(though something deep inside yells..say katiff!!)..It was never an issue talking to a guy as a kid.. but now!..it would surely invite people for some gossip...Kevin Arnold(of Wonder Years) said.."When you are a kid,you are a little of everything...a little of scientist,a little of house maker,a little of prankster,a little of sports person in every sport..."(not the exact words but something to the same effect)so true..but growing up seems like giving up each of these things..Finally you might end up being something which you have never thought of...When we were kids people would ask us what do you want to be when you grow up?(Seriously!..is that the age for kids to think what they want to be after 15 years from now!!)..We,with the most innocent faces would say, "Doctor!!"..Little do we know what a doctor does!!

I said that too!!..My sister and i would say we would start a hospital of our own and that the first floor would be taken care by her and ground floor by me!!!..And today say after 12-13 years later we both are in two total different fields..forget biology..i don't even read physics and chemistry now!!..

Being the youngest child of the house i am still treated as a little fragile kid...but things will never be the same as before...i cant play in the mud water anymore without asking for strange glares from neighbors ,cant play cricket with my cousins[:P],cant cry for a balloon outside the exhibition,cant play from dawn to dusk and sleep peacefully without worrying about the world around and most importantly without thinking about my tomorrow!!

Hey wait!!..why am i cribbing so much??..am just in my teens and am still a kid for my parents!!...Life is changing and certainly that's good because 'change' is inevitable and 'change' is healthy:P:P ...Life's fun even now..in its own way..Cheers:)