They just happen!

Something strange happened today. I have never been a tantrum throwing, loud,shopoholic,indecisive kind of girl. I always knew what I wanted and I have a knack of getting things done without much fuss. I plan everything so that there is 0% error. Most often or not, things do go according to my plan. But there are two things I can never plan out properly- Studies and relationships. I know these are two most important things in life, where you actually got to plan and execute them to perfection. But somehow these two things never seem to work the way i want them to!

Firstly, lets see how career planning never happened to me..All I knew was that, mathematics is not for me. So, I decided, I would probably do medicine or something. Then in 10Th,I realised even physics is not for me. And hence, the only choice I had was to do commerce. I jumped into it not knowing what next. I went around telling people I want to do civils. But I knew it would take a while before I am actually ready for it. In the mean time, I heard a few of my friends were going to do CA. And I thought, "wow! that sounds cool! may be I should do it too!". And I started preparing for it. When I cleared the first level without much effort, I thought maybe I am meant for this..Its been 4 years since all this happened and I am still struggling to clear level 2.

2007-Indian cricket team was kicked out of WC and I cleared my entrance exam

2011-Indian cricket team wins the WC and not very long before I get kicked out by CA institute people for the answers i write in exams!

Coming to relationships..This is the most complicated thing which even a 91 year old cant define forget a 21 year old like me. I sit and try to figure out what exactly happened in all the relations i had with people, few of which went horribly wrong and few sweetly right. As they say, life is what happens to you when you are planning it, i feel relationships are what happen to you when you are planning..err..nothing. You never know when you have fallen in love with a person, when you started being empathetic with the person whom you never really liked, when a new friend happened and when you have fallen apart. I never knew when a normal 'hi-bye' friend with whom, I was trying to set my friend up with, became my best friend and when have I become the person who cant see eye to eye with the girl,who was once considered to be my soul sister.

I know these are not the things which happen only to me. It just bugs me that I have no control over the most important things in my life. I don't know anything when it comes to what I want to do in life and what to do with people who happen to me! All I know is, I was not supposed to write this in this post and was actually supposed to write about buying the book of Highway on my plate. But writing this seemed more appropriate. Maybe that's how it is. You just do what you feel is right and not go around planning every detail of your life! And about that strange thing that happened today, I shall post it next time.

P.S. I felt like Carrie Bradshaw from SATC when I was talking about relationships :P :P

:)